unspoken fears

February 10, 2013 at 9:02 pm 1 comment

“Fear is contagious. You can catch it.
Sometimes all it takes is for someone to say that they’re scared for the fear to become real. Mo was terrified, and now Nick was too. ”  
– Neil Gaiman
18-3-12 - E sleeping on first visit to allotment 4B
There are few things more beautiful than the sight of a sleeping baby.
This evening I held Euan in my arms long after he’d fallen asleep. Watching his chest rise peacefully up and down, milky lips parted in a sleepy smile, fingers outstretched across my heart. I wish I could freeze time and live in this moment for ever I think to myself sometimes. But that would mean no clapping, bashing, climbing, splashing, singing and chatting (not to mention funny hat wearing) – all things that elicit the most amazing smiles, laughter and squeals of delight…
25-1-13 - in furry hat 4B…funny things that make my heart brim full and leave no space for the fear you daren’t speak of as a parent. The agonising, contagious fear of ‘what if …‘ that surfaces each time tragedy strikes someone else’s family. So this evening as I hugged E even tighter I was sparing a thought for the families of 15 month old Patrick who died suddenly in his sleep yesterday and 2 year old Charlie who lost his fight with Leukaemia. There are no words for such heartbreaking news.baby quote

I wanted to share details of a couple of charities set up by bereaved parents to ensure something meaningful comes from the tragic loss of their child.

Reuben’s Retreat, in memory of 23 month old Reuben who died suddenly from a brain tumour last summer, provides support and respite breaks to families facing the serious illness or loss of a child.

Millie’s Trust, in memory of 9 month old Millie who died after a choking incident at nursery, providing free first aid courses for parents and carers.

You can read more about Reuben and Millie here and if you wish to donate to support their work with families you can do so here and here.

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1 Comment Add your own

  • 1. Johanna GGG  |  March 1, 2013 at 12:55 pm

    A really beautiful reflection. I often feel very lucky to have sylvia with us. Life can be very cruel and random. These charities are brilliant that give comfort to those in hard times.


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